jeanyus thoughts

ghosts, spirits and a dead lady playing the piano

2010-10-11T21:10:00.000-04:00

last night's dream left me with more of a weird feeling than a full recollection of what exactly i dreamed about. here is my best recall.

i was a spirit of some sort, a ghost maybe?
there was a young male. i'm unsure if he was alive and i ended up killing him or if he had always been a spirit/ghost and i was trying to contain him because i knew he was negative.
its almost as if i was keeping him in a small space up high, maybe an attic?
i think i had to go and do something and i thought that i had securily trapped/containted this mail spirit. i went downstairs. i'm not sure what i was doing and i don't remember doing anything in particular. i just remember my step mom's face and her smiling.

when i went back upstairs, i saw that the male had left and i was really upset/worried.

next thing i remember i was in this dark place.. maybe a nursing home? i see that the male spirit had brought the body of a dead lady to the place. instead of leaving the body be, he somehow tied it up so that it moved and played the piano. i remember seeing the room, it had a bed and a piano in it, very dimily lit.. and then the old lady, who's face i never saw, was moving almost roboticlly from the strings, and playing the piano. i was worried/saddened that no one would see that this lady had died because she was playing the piano and that her body would start to decompose/smell before anyone would realize.

human

2010-09-18T21:04:00.000-04:00

people are amazing creatures.

so much hate

so much love

so much faith

so much lack of

and so much more..

all in one species.

very interesting.

the girls w/ a murder plan

2010-09-13T23:32:00.000-04:00

night of 9.12.10

i was with a group of girls. i dont know who they are and i'm not for sure if i thought i knew them in the dream. we went to some store or building. there were some sort of employees there that the girls thought that they needed to kill to move forward to the next thing. i'm not for sure what the big plan was.. but they felt this was neccesary to do. i never saw the bodies of the workers, but i knew they were dead there in there with us. i didn't like that they were doing this, but i felt a sense of almost fear, knowing that if i didn't stay with the girls, they may get angry and may be kill me too.

we left the store and i remember boarding an airplane. i knew that we were going to atlanta, ga then stopping in south carolina. i knew each place there would be more killing.

lastly i remember as if the dream was fast forwarded. and there was a narrative over it of me sitting in a small boat with a single little motor on the back with these girls. we were in the middle of a large lake and the water was very still. the narrative explained that the bodies had been chopped up and then anything left was chopped up by the boat motor for the fish to eat. and then we dumped the weapons in the lake as well.

the boat, with out the noise/use of the motor turned around and and moved "off screen"

flying over mountains, murderous breed of people and docking on cement

2010-09-13T22:27:00.000-04:00

9.10.10

i was in ohio and my friend, stephanie was there with me. i wanted to show her what the area i lived at looked like and the "mountains". she didn't want to go, but i kept asking her why she didn't want to see it because it was so pretty and the mountains looked "just like west virginia" she reluctently went with me.. and i showed her the area by flying. i held her hand and we just took off. i didn't think twice about flying or anything during this.

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the area was filled with certain type of people.. almost as if they were humans with some sort of killing tendencies.. and if you weren't one of them, they would kill/attack you. i remember finding myself in a tunnel/alley type area. it was dark/wet/damp. they were surrounding me.. i was wondering how i was going to pass as one of them, so they wouldn't hurt me. something distracted them before they attacked and i was out of harms way... i didn't know what had happened.

i was suddenly by a vending machine type thing. there were people around it and the idea of the machine was to select what you wanted, but instead of getting a product (candybar/drink) you turned in to that weird human. that's how everyone was changing. i couldn't understand why people would want to be this way.. and although i knew it was more dangerous for me to live "normally" i wasn't going to select that in the vending machine.

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i decided that i needed to get away. i knew something was after me, maybe left over from the previous dream? i was standing w/ chris and john. but they weren't leaving or moving.. so i got on a ship that was just sailing across to the other side of the island. i sat down and was in the middle of a group of people that i remember from highschool. i was never really friends with them, but i knew who they were. i remember they were talking about someone and i kept trying to remember who it was and i kept thinking i knew who they were talking about, but then realized i was thinking of the wrong person.

the ship stopped and everyone waited to get disembark. i looked over the edge and noticed that the boat wasn't that far off the ground... in fact, i could just step over the side. i heard the lady/announcer say that "sometimes the water is more shallow than it seems". i stepped over the side and was on the island. i looked back at the ship and saw that everyone was still waiting in line to get off.. i couldn't understand why everyone was waiting to get off when they could just step over the side and be where they wanted to be. i tried to get the attention of the group i was sitting with, but i couldn't. i stepped back from the ship more and noticed that it wasn't even in water, it had pulled up and was "parked" on cement.

i started to walk around on the sand and just remember thinking it was really bright and the sand was really white. i immediately started trying to figure out a way to get back to the other side of the island, where i had been so eager to leave.

Fighting Horse

2010-09-13T21:44:00.000-04:00

9.3.10

i was in ohio with a group of people. no one i reconized but my dad. we were all gathered around and i noticed a really pretty horse. it's coloring was reddish and shiney. while looking at the horse, its almost as if it "zoomed in" with a close up on it's face. there was a breeze and me looking at this horse was almost in slow motion.. just as a movie presenting a "hot chick" . the horse was staring back at me and it was almost as if the horse was reaching out to me, pointing in some way.

when this happened, i asked the person next to me, with out taking my eyes off the horse, what was going on and said that this was kinda freaking me out. the person next to me insinuated that they needed to distract the horse. they pulled out a cell phone and turned on the light and waved it around and yelled "hey!" the horse broke the "gaze" and started staring at someone else. the same thing happened.. and someone yelled to help that person out who was caught in it's "gaze".

next, i noticed that this horse was gazing upon my dad. i noticed that my dad just stared back.. i looked around to see if someone was going to distract the horse at all.. but no one did. the horse then stood up on its back legs and started "punching" my dad with his hooves. although it wasn't as gruesome as it sounds, i saw my dad's face.. just a sadness and eyes closed looking away from the horse. i yelled at the horse and started to hit it. it turned and started to hit me with it's hooves.

it's almost time..

2010-04-28T19:31:00.002-04:00

and i have no words.

srsly d00d

2010-04-27T21:18:00.000-04:00

almost may. not to much came of my april. just work, work and more work.

i want a house.

i want a new desk/office.

i want a lot of things.

does that make me bad?

my throat feels funny tonight, i hope this doesn't mean i'm getting sick.

i need to rinse my hair dye out, its been sitting in there for about an hour now.

blip.fm has my attention (again)

hi, april.

2010-04-05T10:37:00.001-04:00

seriously, the time button seriously feels like its stuck on fast forward. heck.. today marks 16 years since front man, kurt cobain killed himself (4/8 was when he was found). why do i remember these things? i dont know.. well i know about this one b/c i was insanely in to them.

anywhoo...

yesterday was easter.. but was the first easter that didn't feel like a real easter. (whatever that is) the family didn't get together like normal... for good reason, though. extended family coming in NEXT week.. and we decided to feast later, hehe. but yesterday i ended up going to the local theme park, busch gardens and spending the day there. had a great time.. just far from "easterish".

here's me and chris on the train yesterday :)

what happened

2010-03-28T20:27:00.000-04:00

to human contact?

i heart the internet and social media at its finest, ya'll. but seriously.. human to human communication should not all be lost.

observation...

2010-03-26T21:24:00.000-04:00

i often feel uninspired and feel as if i lack the creative juices that just a few short years ago pumped through my veins. however, ever so often, i get a burst/spurt of creative everything all at once. i love this feeling.. but it seems like i then have so many ideas i don't know where to start... so i don't...

it eventually passes and i'm back to square one.

so ultimately, i feel like i don't do anything fun or creative anymore.

depressing.

2010, what have you done...

2010-03-15T20:49:00.000-04:00

although we are already in the middle of three months, plenty of movement is among my circle, thus far, in 2010.

birth, death, weddings, serious illness... its just a lot for such a seemingly short time.

life, what an indescribeable journey...

time flies

2010-01-19T20:20:00.002-05:00

here it is, on the eve of wednesday - the half way point in the working week. i don't know about anyone else.. but time in the past couple of years, has just started to wiz by. my work weeks are going by as equally fast as my weekends. and although most people would find that a blessing (trust me, i'm not complaining about my work days not draaaagggggiiinnngggg on) i'm just finding it crazy/frantic/amazing/scary that time itself is just going way to fast for me.

although it certainly doesn't feel like i should still be in highschool - those days are far behind me now, it doesn't feel as if i should be turning the corner to 30 already. THIRTY. age has never really concerned me much... only as old as you feel.. yadda yadda... but.. 30 just feels like... ya.. you're a real, OFFICIAL adult now.. haha.

again, i'm not much one for minding of age.. just seems every year before my birthday, i start wondering what i have done since the last year... where was i... where am i now... where am i going.. and i still have about six months till my birthday.. i guess i just started thinking earlier about it b/c its the big 3-0. just feels missing something right now... feels like i'm "forgetting" to do something ... as if i'm wasting my time not doing something important.. or heck, evening meaningful. it's hard to describe.

me in '87 w/ an incredible marshmallow mustache :) good times.

graveyard shift

2010-01-17T15:41:00.001-05:00

what a beautiful day. because of my hermit-like status, i'm admiring the sunshine and breeze from my computer desk. :)

this weekend, although not completely over, has felt a bit too short. got some needed things done - laundry, cleaning... also got in some family visits as well.. mom, step-dad, grandma... good times.
i also visited my grandpa's grave. it's almost been two years since he has passed. its so strange.

i go there to "visit", but don't know exactly what to do. i probably was there for a tops of 10 mins.. and at least 5 of those were spent locating his actual plot. when i finally found him, the first thing that caught my eye was his "neighbor's" flowers where knocked over. i straightened them. the second thing that popped out was the attached plot/name plate/tombstone thingy to his - my grandma's. she is thankfully still alive and well, but they already have her names engraved, just with an open "death date". i know this isn't completely uncommon... infact, my family in ohio has the same thing w/ my grandparents there. regardless if its "normal" or not... doesn't make it any less creepy/odd to me.

i kneel down.. kinda stare.. notice the browness of the grass from the cold snap we recently had. then just kinda sat there thinking.. "papaw.. i dont know what to say.. i just came here to let you know i still think about you."

i dont know.. it felt "right" for me.. but i'm not sure what the "right" thing to do is, when you're visiting a grave.

/random thought babble

its the little things...

2010-01-14T14:43:00.000-05:00

it's amazing what a little fresh air and sunshine can do. for anyone who has read through my blog before, you may know that i work from home and in the past year and a half have become more of a hermit than i ever dreamt of becoming. there are sometimes where i dont even peek outside my window at days at a time... and i often find myself dragging and just plain out feeling BLAH.

today i got a surprise "IM" from my kinda, sorta mother in law (whom also works from home) and her and her employee invited me out just to run some errons and get starbucks. It was just the pick up that i needed! it was nice to get out of the house and actually being social with someone face to face instead of through txt or internet. don't get me wrong, i love my internet and all the commincation that comes with it.. but apparently i've been under estimating the power of real life human contact.

yay for little things that brighten your day!

sharing is caring

2010-01-13T20:12:00.000-05:00

felt productive in work today. which was good. the past few months i've just kinda felt like i've been pushing paperwork to a different side of the desk each day, only to make more room for more. but who doesn't feel that at times.

feeling like i really want to reach out and be creative... like i was not too long ago.. but it seems like in the past couple of years i've fizzled. how do you get something like that back?

It's 2010..

2010-01-12T20:37:00.000-05:00

Man, I feel all futuristic just writing the year now. Wasn't this the time frame that we all should be having personalized jet packs and robots in our houses do clean? No?

Another year has come and gone.. no, i didn't make any new years resolution - kudus to those who did and actually kept to their newly found "goals" for at least the first full week of the year :) i'm hoping for great things and happiness to come over me and my family in 2010.. but not just b/c its a new year.. guess just now sounds like the time for wishing and throwing things out there.. and topping it all off w/ "2010".

I had a wonderful christmas... probably one of the best i have had in a while. i haven't been with my dad and family in ohio for christmas in several years - since i was a teenager. and with the help of one of my younger sisters, i was able to surprise everyone and showing up christmas eve. it was really great. i get tears in my eyes just thinking of the great time i had up there. nothing too much was done.. but just being with my family was awesome. it really stinks having your family spread out like that.. i would love to be closer.. but moving closer to one, leaves me further from another... i over think a lot of things and moving is one of those things i have kicked in my head for several years.

i'm not too sure what today's blog post is all about.. considering i haven't posted in a couple of months (typical) i just had the urge to blog. hopefully i'll get the urge to blog again soon, and maybe.. just maybe.. someone will have the patience to read through my dribble.

happy janunary, everyone.

update

2009-11-22T19:57:00.003-05:00

welp, here i am... almost turning the curve to arrive at the end of November. Where in the world did 2009 go... SERIOUSLY?!

i've been pretty busy recently, but in a good way. last week chris and i went on a vacation to grand cayman and mexico - it was much needed! not looking forward to getting back to the grind tomorrow morning, although with it being thanksgiving week - at least its not a full work week so i can ease on in to things ;)

man, getting halfway through this post has made me realize why i haven't posted in such a while - b/c i suck!!!

Bye bye band wagon

2009-07-21T23:33:00.001-04:00

Ok so in my band days.. I bought a van that could hold bodies and tow our trailer with all of our gear. A year and a half has past now since the band has taken its last bow ... and my van was on its last leg.

Today, I finally got a car for ME ... my dream car, a vw bug!!!!!! I know it was the right choice.. I need a reliable car. But with my cheapskate roots.. I just start to get all nervous at the thought of payments again.

Man.. hard day at work and all this excitement leaves me mega tired. I just finished packing and wanting to get a good night sleep before my flight to ga tomorrow. Yeah that's right... bought a car and can't drive it till I get back!!

zzzzzzzz

two day streak

2009-07-16T19:37:00.003-04:00

so this past week or so i've been pretty slammed. it's odd how i find myself normally bored ... then when stuff starts happening - it happens all at once and i complain about being busy. guess i can't be pleased. :)

i've been spending time at a a local cat rescue/sanctuary area. they are trying to get grants to help out with funding and they need a video put together and all that jazz. so, since i had adopted a cat from them (adelle), i told them i could help out. i enjoy editing, so its fun for me - and its helping out a good cause, so its all around good!

next week, i'm headed to georgia to spend a few days w/ my friend, ashely. for those of you who don't know (and anyone who is actually reading this) i've been besties with her since kindergarten. its awesome, when you think about it, to have had a friend for so long to see you go through all this different stages. i mean... she's seen me through my afro perm to my bleach hair gone wrong - and she's still totally cool with me :)

welp, lets see if i'll be able to keep this thing up... but who knows... that's what i said the last three times i decided to "make a comeback".

toodles!

Post from email/phone?

2009-07-15T14:50:00.001-04:00

Ummmmmmm why would I need to be able to post via email? Cause I'm lazy. I can now write out redick messages and thought via my cell phone.. kinda like twitter but longer... this won't last for me... I'm lazy. Baaaaahhhh!!!

a much needed update

2009-04-15T15:45:00.002-04:00

holy cow!! 5 months since my last post.. FIVE MONTHS!!!

apparently, i'm not very good about being faithful to this blog, am i?

welp, summing everything up should be pretty easy, considering not too many things have happened. as you may recall, i started my new job in october. up until now, i've felt pretty swamped so my life pretty much revolved around that. this new job, i love it - but it has not come w/o sacrafice. me devoting all my time has pretty much squashed any of my fun/personal/social time. only in the past couple of weeks, have i felt like i've finally got a lasso around it again.. i'm just working on pulling it back in.

how was that cowboy-type reference for ya? haha.

one thing that i really enjoyed was making youtube videos. i have strayed from both watching and making.. just this week have i tried to get back on track with that. i ENJOY doing them.. so i need to make time for that stuff. otherwise, my life just becomes all work - and i feel like i'm becoming a dull girl b/c of it!! oh noes!

well.. i suppose i will go for now.. i dont know how faithful i will be to this blog.. but i certainly am starting up on my yt account again... and i'm hands down a twitter nerd (follow me 'imajeanyus'). small steps my friend, small steps...

okie dokie... off now!!

later!!!!!

snap snap

2008-11-14T08:32:00.002-05:00

welp, a week has come and passed. last weekend was good - but busy. i ended up not bring my video camera to the fun little photoshoot that my friend and i had. i'm looking forward to seeing the pictures when she's done with them.

*yawn*

this weekend, i will probably have the regular sat night jam w/ the guys. on sunday, i'm hanging w/ my photography friend again. she's having a shoot for some dogs and i'm going to be her "assistant". hopefully i will be helpful. if not, i'll end up playing w/ the doggies. hehehe.

welp, i'm suppose to be working.. so i guess i should do that.. just thought i would check in while i was thinking about it.

friday, friday, FRIDAY!!

2008-11-07T08:43:00.002-05:00

2 posts in a 5 day span?! woah, woah, woah... hold on to your britches!

this week was pretty good, although its not over yet. i'm looking forward to sunday. as you probably have guest it, i'm a huge ham *blush* and my friend is going to school for photography. she needs some practice and i NEED my picture taken (hehe) so sunday we're going to have fun and take pictures.

the plan is for me to get dressed up (i know, since i'm a pj's kinda gal, JEANS is really dressing up for me. ) she said she's gotta dress for me to wear. maybe i'll bring my video camera? hmm...

hopefully some pics come out good. i know she'll do a great job.. you know how us gals are just picky about how we look. ;)

okie.. i should get to work!!

its chilly in florida!

2008-11-03T10:20:00.002-05:00

holy cow. its almost the end of 2008. wasn't i just in time square and we were counting down to start this year off right? i can not believe that we have two more months left and then its "hello 2009"!!

when i was a kid, the days went by so slow. even the hours and minutes seemed to take their sweet time passing. now, i feel like i'm grasping on to every second to make sure i can do it all!

so, to try to keep this update peppy and un-boring, i'm gonna try and make it snappy.

i have moved and am finally feeling settled in. i have completed my training and am officially working from home. today marks start of month two. it is a bit crazy, but i'm finding that each week is getting more and more under control. thus why i am able to update this in the middle of my work day today :).

theres a bit of chill in the air, as we all know that is a rariety for flordida. so although i'm wearing pants and rediculously heavy socks to stay snuggily, i would much rather it be this way than me sweating and being all gross from the heat and humidity.

hmmmm.. i think thats about it for now.. just working and sleeping. with things feeling a bit more under control, i am hoping to dive back into my e-life with open arms. (im so nerdy).

latttteerrzzzzzz

update schmupdate

2008-09-12T13:06:00.003-04:00

okay friends, so its been a while. a long while.

i've been crazy busy right now.. as i type this, i am literally in a room with nothing but a computer that is online. now that is dedication, lol. i am waiting for a phone call for the word to take my little minivan thats filled to the brim, to my new apartment.

training for my new position is going good, although i'm getting more and more ansy as the money i have saved is so easily flowing out of my bank account to cover all the new expenses.

i hope soon i will be settled and not working 9-10 hour days mon-fri, so i can have more play time again. i haven't been making many videos lately on you tube or vlogger heads. yes, i'm on both.. apparently there's hoopla with being on both.. but.. its just web sites, people. sure, you meet some neat people and can build some friendships.. but bottom line, its friggin' web sites, not world hunger.

welp, guess thats about me summed up in a nutshell at this moment. i will post again when i am able!!

calgon, take me away!

good-bye

2008-08-25T21:03:00.005-04:00

one of my doggies passed away this afternoon.

she was older and all mine. every night she would sleep in my room, come with me when i ran errons.. good-bye dear friend, i love you and you will be greatly missed.

mid-week update

2008-08-13T08:12:00.003-04:00

you may or may not know about my step-dad having 3 major surgeries early this year. it was around the time that my grandfather passed away. my step dad, whom i'm close with, had one regular out patient surgery because he had a hernia. welp, that turned into a big mess.. landing him in the hospital for about two weeks and leaving him out of work for a couple of months.

he's still not 100% but, he's back at work. recently, he discovered something strange in his stomach area again. he went to the doctor's office yesterday and it was determined that he had yet another hernia. however, this time, since his body went through so much, they said he can't handle another surgery right now.

i'm a major, major worry wart and i just hope that everything is going to be ok. they told him basically to take it easy and they'll see him in november for a check-up.

a little note

2008-08-08T07:47:00.003-04:00

yessssssss... its friday!!

its also 888 and i'm still here in florida. i wouldn't have had the funds to go .. and the timing is all wrong anyway right now. but come on.. anyone know the details of 999?? tee hee.

tomorrow chris (my boyfriend) and i are going to be going through our storage area to see what we have and what we need. sunday, i hope its another day for me to sleep all day :)

its a mad rush

2008-08-05T08:09:00.004-04:00

ok, ok, ok. i'm posting! (is this better, billy? lol)

well, i'm officiall jobless and in training for my new career in the medical billing field. i've been doing it for about two 1/2 years now already as an employee of a company, and now i'm stepping up to learn more about it and move into the position of buisness owner.

things are really looking up. although i am living on limited funds, i have been saving for this so i'm OKAY jobless.. just can't go out and party it up. you know, because that's so my style anyway, lol.

in september, my bf and i are getting an apartment. we've lived together before, but due to circumstances (money, band) we had to move back home with our parents. i have a great relationship w/ my 'rents.. but it will be nice to have peoeple over and not have to tell them to be quiet b/c my mom's sleeping, just like when i was 16. don't get me wrong, keeping your fun and youthful outlook on life is great! but at 28, i'd like to feel like an adult in SOME aspects ;)

welp, its 8:15 in the morning and i have once again relasped on my no coffee rule. ugh. its so hard to stay away when its just so goooood! sooo.. i'm wired right now. guess i better get ready for training. i leave in 15 mins and i've myspaced, twitted, emailed and now blogged.. but i have failed to get ready!!

hello!

2008-07-28T08:17:00.002-04:00

well, last week was pretty much over in a blink of an eye. just been busy with work and training, its been a whirlwind. i didn't work at all this weekend so i caught up on some of my neglected duties at my place. which included a youtube video :) i'm so silly.

any hooo.. this week is my last week in my current position. next week, i start full time training. i'm excited!! and with in the next couple of months, i should be moving :)

okie dokie.. that was my quickie update.

gosh im hungry

omgzzzzz new hair!!

2008-07-20T16:53:00.002-04:00

i've been waiting for the perfect moment to break out the "zz"s while typing "omg" and this seemed like just the time.

i finally did it. bye bye pink, hello brown!

its the new cool

2008-07-15T11:55:00.002-04:00

so i went into blog tv last night and was the most interactive i've ever been. (which wasn't butt loads, but i talked and was responded to, ya know). i think i like it. don't know if i like it better than stickam or not. it has pluses and minuses. for example, i like the idea of seeing everyone you are talking with in the stickam rooms, but i like how if i don't feel like getting on camera, then its not weird that im not in blog tv, b/c there is really one main cam slot anyway.

huhuhuh i said "cam slot".

i've been busy lately, as i've mentioned/complained about before.. but i'd like to get into that blog tv thing a bit more. i like chatting real time with the people that i watch. just nice to feel like you have friends:) gosh, i wish i were going to 888. any plans on 999 anyone?? maybe i can make it to that one!!

on a roll

2008-07-12T08:05:00.003-04:00

two posts in one week? it's a miracle, considering my recent track record.

its funny, i always think that i should write in this journal, but i dont do much but work and come home.. so, nothing too interesting to share with people. what's a girl to blog about?

its officially the last week of this pink hair of mine. next saturday (7/19) i'm changing. i'm hoping that it turns out right. normally when i change hair colors, it's never 100% accurate the first time around. its as if it just primes it for the next time. so ususally, i have to dye my hair two days in a row. hope that doesn't work that way this time b/c i dont have the color in my hands that the girl is gonna be using to dye my hair. plus, i had a recent dream that i dyed my hair and the old color was showing through. so many people were stopping me and telling me how much they hated my hair :) oh... those silly dreams of mine!

so i'm on this site now called myearbook.com. it's a rediculous (i prob spelled that wrong) version of myspace and facebook all in one site. its so bad and annoying that i'm addicted to it. people "buying" your picture, battling.. its just insanely stupid and addicting all at the same time. i'm almost ashamed to write about it. lol. there was another point to me posting that.. but i forgot what it was while typing, and since i've already typed this far.. i felt it'd be just a waste to erase it.

bye!

one way to ensure people don't read your blog...

2008-07-07T20:05:00.005-04:00

be sporadic in posting. they'll soon get tired of checking back to see if today was the *big day* that something was actually posted - i think my plan is working :)

so the past few weeks have been a little busier than i expected. been working hard and soon to work harder. but when you know it’s for a better reason and it will pay in the end, it’s not so hard :)

i'm really excited about my new business venture. sure, its far from the rock stardom i once strived for. but if i can't be rockin stages everywhere anymore (and make enough money to pay all my bills) theeeennnn i'll settle for working in my pj's forever <3. in just a few short months, i'll be on my own and i can't wait.

I NEED TO MAKE A VIDEO.

as i laid in my bed last night, trying to drift to sleep.. all i could think about was trying to think of a cool video to do. how'd that turn out?? *ahem* let’s just say i just drifted in to dream land. guess none of my ideas were that exciting.

okie dokie, bye for now!!

blurb

2008-06-21T18:36:00.002-04:00

man, this passed week has flown by.

i had been thinking earlier in the week how is funny when you're just a kid, all you have is time and you just don't know what to do with it. you get bored and complain that there is nothing to do, you're soooo bored.

when you're an adult.. you have a million things to do and all you want is time to just sit around and not do anything.

if only there was someone that could have gotten it through to me when i was younger, to enjoy the lack of responsibility.. to endulge in all the fun things i like to do...

happy sunday

weekend fun!

2008-06-16T16:28:00.012-04:00

this weekend was packed full of goodness!

first, saturday i woke up bright and early to mow the lawn and get some chore-like stuff done. but theeennnnnn at lunch time, i had a meet up with a fellow youtuber! (lukaisntluka). it was the first time i had ever met someone i had coorisponded with on that site. we had been talking for a while on chat and watching each others videos - once we both determined neither of us was weird (in a bad way) we decided to meet up since we were so close!

it was really cool because we met and there was no akwardness, no lull, everything felt right - like we've been friends for ages! its really neat to be able to have a friend that shares the same interest as you. most people that i s/w about the videos think its "neat" but aren't IN to the videos :D i really look forward to a time when i can go to a gathering of some sort. it always seems to hit at a bad finacial time. maybe if there's a 999 close by i can make it out?? :)

sunday was nice. it was father's day so had a little dinner.. hung out.. and my bf and i went and looked at some apartments to get an idea on things to prepare us for our move sometime by the end of this year.

so much stuff is going on right now - both fun and stressful stuff!!

welp, guess i better go.. i leave you with a pic of me and ruthie from sat (thanks ruthie!)

(i think i thought i was hot stuff, look at my silly face!)

changes

2008-06-12T11:17:00.002-04:00

okie dokie. this is a new begining. i'm officially cancelling the instant snapshots. you can only get so cute with just sitting in a chair. plus, i'm at work right now posting this (shhh) and i don't have a camera available.

so its official. i have a hair date in mid-july. and i'm changing. if you don't know what i'm changing it to, then i'll guess you'll just have to wait and see!!

things have been picking up for me. this year started off with a bang. as you may or may not know, my bf and i brought our new years in at times square in beautiful new york. it was awesome! but then the year started to go a bit down hill for me.. money issues after money issuse with unexpected bills, procedures.. family illness and a family death.. stress with trying to save money while all of this was going on - it was just taking toll on me.

finally, seems like things are getting on track. i mentioned before that i'm going to be training for a new position in my job. sorry if i keep babbling about it, i'm just excited about getting to a point in my life where my work will pay off for me, instead of just being reconized as a good worker and get more work piled i'll get to (hopefully) see the benefits. with this tho, i am going to be sacraficing some. im disappointed that it seems i may not be able to keep up with my internet fun as much. but its only temparay.

speaking of work.. i guess i better do some!!

productive and thoughtful

2008-06-08T21:48:00.002-04:00

man, don't know about you guys but this weekend flew by so fast for me. but at least i felt productive. did some cleaning, laundry, took my four hour "defensive driving" class (online) so i could keep the points off my DL, keep my insurance rate down and all that jazz. i also washed the dogs today and welp.. i think thats about it. i guess maybe i wasn't as busy as most people.. but this is coming from someone who doesn't really like to move from the bed to the computer desk :)

also, i did a little vlog about my current hair delima. haha.. well whatever you want to call it. i'm just kinda bored with the pink. i dont hate it, just craving something different. the last time i did that i had red hair.. then decided i wanted black.. then decided i wanted red again.. boy, that was a traumatic time for my hair - but it pulled through ok. i am thinking about going natural, through the suggestion from my bf. but as odd as it may seem, i almost feel like im not "ready" to. LOL. i guess i should stop being so silly. just like any other color i've done.. when i'm "over" it, i just get a different color. so no matter what i choose, this time will be no different. i just don't want to do another "un-natural" color for the sake of being colorful.. i always choose the colors i wear b/c i like them.. not for the "wow" factor.

holla.

*instant snapshot*

yayness

2008-06-04T22:51:00.003-04:00

wow, this week is just flying by. good thing cause i can't wait for the weekend! some big things are headed my way in the next few months. job/position change, possibly moving, just all this crap. its exciting and stressful/scary all at the same time. i need to pinch my pennies even more to assure i will be able to make it through!!

in august, i will start training/schooling for my new position. although its been something i've been working towards for quite sometime now, there's this fear of 'oh no, is this the right thing, can i do it?' or to just plan ol' 'oh my gosh, i can't belive its really happening!!'

*sigh*

this will def be a new begining. its gonna be some work.. but im up for it.. i just hope it goes as smooth as possible.

*instant snapshot*

getting back to the routine

2008-06-01T11:10:00.007-04:00

i'm back! i had a great time with my family in ohio. i hadn't seen them in 2 years, so it was nice. plus, felt like i was getting all frazzled here (in my daily grind) so just getting away was so nice!

so i come back to the internet land/youtube land and see that i have missed so many videos and went on a mini video watching marathon yesterday. i probably still haven't viewed all the videos missed this passed week - but i think i at least caught up on the recent ones. i know, i'm cheesey, but although i am subbed to a decent amount of people, i actually sub to people that i WANT to WATCH so when people make videos, i want to make sure that i see them!

i need to make a video as well. but although its only been a week.. i feel like i have nothing spectacular to talk about and i just don't know how to jump back into my groove of making videos.

oh my goodness.. this whole blog has been about youtube.. i must be obessed. hey, can't help it.. i enjoy it so i talk about it!! :)

guess i'll head off now. time to get back into my routine of sleep>work>computer time. isn't my life awesome!?

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traveling shoes

2008-05-21T21:27:00.004-04:00

ahhh tomorrow is the day where i get on the plane and travel to ohio!! i'm looking forward to the break and to go back:) nothing changes there. i think in the past 10 years, the biggest thing that has happened is they built a super walmart.

but although its a slower paced area.. i do enjoy it. i wouldn't mind living back up there again. i know eventually i'm going to move. i could stand the heat of florida to be with my family.. but my bf isn't diggin the area.. and i say that i can't live with someone who hates where they are.. so.. we may move up north. hopefully to ohio so if i can't be with my loved ones here, i can be with them up there :D

yay!!

so needless to say, with me going on vacation, i don't think i will be updating the blog.. you know.. for the two people that read this thing. haha.

anyhoo.. gotta pack - smell ya later!

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random topic

2008-05-19T22:41:00.005-04:00

a conversation this weekend with my friend has got me re-thinking about something that occasionally pops in my head. the question of 'how do people view you?' don't mistake this with caring what people think about you. do you ever wonder who people view you? what type of 'vibes' do you seemingly give off to people.

i do find myself curious and amused by opinions gathered of me by people before they meet me.. or their assumtions/perceptions of me, with out knowing me. i've gotten opinions ranging from bitch to druggie.. strong and opinionated... to mentally unstable and a push-over.

all so different and amazing that i in some way have put off all of these different vibes to people. makes me wonder if i'm really all of those different parts into one.. or do the people gathering those thoughts just don't get it.

i'm really a cheap skate, homebody that over thinks things way too much.

oh, i got my hair done. i know you can't really tell, but its much shorter. now.. i can no longer put it up in a ponytail.

*instant snapshot*

weekend planner

2008-05-16T19:35:00.002-04:00

plans for the weekend... welp, tonight i'm hoping to run up to the tattoo shop and switch out my bulky hoops back for studds. i really liked having the ones studd and when i got my other side pierced, my plan was to have the two studs, but for healing purposes the hoops are better :)

wow, a whole paragraph on hoops vs studs.

tomorrow i'm getting my hair re-dyed. same color (hot hot pink). whenever i have a hair date scheduled, i stop touching up my own hair. so for the past month or so i've let it fade so insanely bad.. and my roots are horriffic!! then after i get all that jazz taken care of, later than night i am planning to hang again with my friends aka band mate type people and create some music :) i'm diggin' it fo' sho'.

and i just got a call from a friend who is in photography school and asked if i would help out with one of her projects. well, there's not really much helping on my part, just me being in the picture. so, since i'm a ham, of coarse i said yes!! so, that should be fun.

okie dokie.. i guess that it. i'm leaving you with an instant snapshot of my pitiful looking hair...

*instant snapshot*

can you pump it and chat it up at the same time?

2008-05-13T11:28:00.006-04:00

whether or not your a gym-goer or not (i'm obviously not a hard core-goer, my soft center gives me away!) we all know the purpose - to get in there and work it!! i can't quite understand how the people talking on their cell phones or texting while "working out" are really getting the full effect. i mean, i see some of these ladies just strolling away on the treadmill while chit-chatting with whomever while i'm there sweating bullets going strong on my cardio machine. maybe its the poor person talking in me, but whats the point of spending the monthly amount if you're just going through the motions? like i said, i am absolutly in no way some sort of body builder but darn-it i'm gonna get my monthly fee outta that gym!!

this rant was brought on by seeing at least two people last night chatting it up and texting away whilst doing cardio and pumping their iron.

*instant snapshot*

ps - the hair is super faded!! get it redone saturday - can't wait!!!

stress free, music and mother's day

2008-05-11T09:37:00.004-04:00

This weekend has seemed to be pretty good :) I think i'm getting such much needed rest. I've been having some chest pains over the passed couple of weeks, and i'm pretty positive its due to stress.

last night was pretty rad! my friends and i hung out to create some music. our goal is just write and record - not to play out. which is strange considering i've been preforming for many years, but i think i'm going to enjoy this new road i'm taking. we were able to lay some scratch tracks down of one song and get another song written/arranged. i'm looking forward to seeing the final result of the songs. it's a ways off still, but i really think it's going to be good - and i can't wait to share.

on another note, today is mother's day. pretty much the whole family is getting together and have a little cook-out style lunch/dinner. it'll be nice. we haven't gotten together since the passing of my papaw. which has only been a month ago, but it seems like foreve now.

man, apparently drinking coffee while blogging equals long winded blogs!!!

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cops and paint

2008-05-09T22:32:00.004-04:00

alas! excitement in the last couple of days!

yesterday morning, i woke up with only 15 mins to shower, make/eat breakfast pack lunch and take out the trash. instead of calling to let my boss know i'd be a little late.. i decided that i'd just make up the time i 'wasted' while sleeping, in speed. needless to say, it wasn't the smartest move and i gots myself some tickets.

it was my first time being pulled over. although i didn't cry (which surpised to poop outta me) i was awfully nervous. so nervous that i couldn't pull the driver's licesense out of my wallet. i was shaking so bad!!! we were there for several mins trying to get my DL out, but i couldn't get it so finally he just looked at it and didn't take it back to his car. (GEEZ!!)

so that was yesterday.

today at work i wrapped up a little early and left! went over to walmart and hit up the craft section picking out the cheapest of the cheap paints and a little canvas and decided i was going to paint the frustration of the new ticket bills (amongst others) away. i painted a little birdy. the colors are off in this photo b/c of the web cam i used (and its current settings) the bg is red and the birdy is bright blue.

yeah, its not picasso or anything, but its the best of my abilities. i may suck at a lot of things, but if i'm having fun and enjoying it.. it doesn't matter. :)

*instant snapshot*

my tuesday night

2008-05-07T22:50:00.003-04:00

my boyfriend and i went to the radiohead show last night. it was really awesome. some people may gasp when i say i didn't know a buttload of radiohead, but the albums i do have, i really enjoy. but with saying that, their show really did keep my attention.. even with not knowing every song that was played. :)

wow... that was my big thing and all i had was that little splurge about it? hmm.. welp, i just don't know what to do.. guess i'll end this posting before i began to bore anyone :D

*instant snapshot*

odds and ends

2008-05-04T09:59:00.005-04:00

my lack of posting is not due to such a busy schedule. although, i should just go with that reason so i can act like i have something cool going on. but then you'd wonder why my posts were so boring :)

since my last post on tuesday, my days have really consisted of working, sleep and drive time in between. nothing amazing has happened. i have made a couple of videos and have another that i need to edit. i really enjoy being silly on camera and editing... i just wish my imagination flowed as much as it did when i was younger. i guess in my elder years i'm becoming rusty. :)

oh! (random thought) one thing i did want to post about are those smart cars! anyone see them? oh my goodness, i passed by one yesterday and it was soo cute! what are they, like a beefed up golf cart?

i am really looking forward to my vacation back home! it's only about 2 1/2 weeks away!! i'm going to have such a wonderful time, and this break is much needed!

*instant snapshot*

money...

2008-04-29T23:59:00.005-04:00

...just wish i had it right about now. i think it would make a lot of things a heck of a lot easier.

ugh.
*instant snapshot*

ps - so far tonight i've watched karate kid and i'm watching karate kid II, pretty good if i do say so myself. however, i think sleep would be better for me.

day at the beach

2008-04-27T21:37:00.012-04:00

today i ventured out of my norm and went to the beach. i haven't been to the beach in several years. the last time i went was in '04 and that was in the morning to snap pictures of the sunrise. before that, oh my.. it had been forever.
although i'm not one for the sun or sand, i actually had a wonderful time just hanging out with friends. i snapped a few pics of my adventure:) if anything, its just proof that i DO leave my computer from time to time.

view from the blanket

~~flock~~ pair of seagulls
me and beth

me and beth's foot/leg
beth licking my toe

i had a wonderful time with my wonderful friends!! and the best part is, i have a sunburn to think about the whole experience for the next few days!

*instant snapshot*

hair-dye ho down

2008-04-24T21:01:00.004-04:00

i'm touching up my very faded hair. you'd think i would have checked the amount of hair dye in the jar prior to putting it on my head - but no, that'd be the smart thing to do. i lathered the top of my head really good and then noticed, i dont have enough for my whole head. it normally wouldn't be so bad, but my hair is very faded and the fresh dye is shades different. soooo... looks like until my hair dye comes in, i'll be walking around with two-toned pink.

but thats cool.. i did have a 'fro for like, a year. if i could survive that.. then i can survive this. :)

*instant snapshot*

gas grumbles

2008-04-22T20:36:00.006-04:00

NO! not THAT kinda gas! (well, maybe earlier.. but not what i'm talking about now) i'm not one to really get mixed up in the politics, economy or heck, even environment convos because quite frankly, i'm not well versed in that stuff. and lets face it, all those topics can be pretty big hot buttons for certain people and i just don't want to go in 'unarmed'.

but with that being said, i am completely freaking about these gas prices! i mean, seriously! i drive a mini van that thankfully is fairly good on gas, but still a HUGE tank to fill! i put maybe a half of a tank in today and it cost me $40... i know that a full tank will be at least $90+.

now, here come my uneducated ramblings.. i know we don't want to 'fudge up' the environment with building whatever it takes to get oil from our land, but yet its ok to do that to other countries land? just because we can't SEE it doesn't mean its not happening.. it HAS to happen.. so why are we getting the oil/gas/whatever from other countries making ourselves dependant on them when we have the supplies right here?? i just don't understand.

i don't live in an area with a public bus system, i don't work at a place i can car pool, i'm not in a financial position to purchase a more gas friendly car... so ... UGH.. i'm just so aggravated! i'm already broke.. but now i feel as if i'm just working to pay for my gas to get to and from work!!
-end of uneducated rant-

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marvelous monday!

2008-04-21T23:35:00.004-04:00

ok, well maybe not marvelous - but it was pretty darn ok for a begining of a week. i worked hard at my job and twittered my little brains out in between breaths :D

man, i can't believe that its almost the end of april. this time next month i will be in lovely ohio. i can't wait.

oh and i spruced up my little blog. i like it.

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good-bye weekend, hello monday!

2008-04-20T23:11:00.004-04:00

holy cow, it just hit me like a ton of bricks. i am tired! i'm trying to be a bit more faithful to this little public vlog of mine. heck, im not even really faithful to my top secret blog i have. but whatever.

this weekend was pretty cool. had a good time w/ some friends and ended up writing a pretty cool song on sat w/ some .. band mates(?) today i pretty much just vegged out and edited. it was a first time in a while where i just relaxed. heck, even mowed the grass in my robot pjs.

man, i really need to re-dye my hair. i have so many things i actually needed to do.. but i just think i needed this veg day more!

it was a good day!

*instant snapshot*

getting back on the road

2008-04-17T21:38:00.004-04:00

i feel pretty normal and good today. a tad sleepy, but over all, pretty good. i'm looking forward to this weekend. i'm going to hang w/ some friends i haven't seen in a while tomorrow.. then on saturday night i'm getting together with some peeps to make music :) i'm trying to finish up the melody and lyrics for a song that was some what put together last time we met up. .i'm having to rush my creativity since last week it was pretty much shut off. i'd like to at least complete the chorous in addition to the verse i've written.

why am i telling you this?

i dunno, i'm kinda babbling.. i'm good at that :D

*instant snapshot*

PS - if any one was wondering (or cares) the whole point of the 'instant snapshot' thing, is me taking a picture of myself at the time of me posting this.. im known for pointing out the obvious.. but just incase it wasn't clear, i wanted the one person who reads this to know that... ok.. BYE!

the day after yesterday

2008-04-13T13:53:00.004-04:00

yesterday was the day. the final day of the recent saga, yet the first day of getting back to the new "normal". the funeral was very nice and we were told that it was sure a one of a kind that the preacher had preformed.

although i do not practice in anything, i was rasied in the church. my papaw was a pastor and a very well known/well respected one in the nazerene domination. the funeral was filled with upbeat, live music from a band.. drums.. guitars.. everything.. i was so proud to hear that my papaw had touched so many lives and impacted them in some way with his kindness and example.

i may not be a faithful church goer, but i certainly hope that when i pass away, that i have somehow reached out and touch someone just by being me. i try to make people feel special and important.. and it was so wonderful to see that someone i care about so dearly was thought of in that light.

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good-bye

2008-04-07T22:33:00.003-04:00

today, my papaw passed away.

you touched so many people with your travels and teachings.

once such a strong, independant man..turned dependant on all around him.

we know you are now at peace,

but its still hard for us to stay strong.

i love you papaw and you will be missed by many.
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update in jeanyus land

2008-04-06T23:41:00.004-04:00

i seriously do think about writing in here every day... i swear.

things have been pretty hectic around my parts recently. i'm normally one that seems to go at a laid back, slow pace.. but lately i've been busy with family stuff. my step dad was in the hopsital for a couple of weeks due to complications to a pretty normal surgery (hernia). and then just last week, it was determined that my grandpa doesn't have much longer to live. he's been ill for a while, but it still doesn't make the news any easier.

now my car breaks down and i'm using someone else's but its taking $500 that i don't have to fix it.. on top of the $1,000 that i just charged up for my dental stuff.

i know blogs/diaries are suppose to be honest and sometimes life does include some gloomy days.. i just try to keep these public journals a little more upbeat for anyone who actually stumbles acrossed it.

any hoo.. thats whats going on with me.. hopefully things will get back on track and i'll be a little more carefree and light hearted soon:)

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The First Whenever-We-Feel-Like Photo Shoot Remake Challenge

2008-03-30T03:21:00.005-04:00

ok.. soo... it looked like too much fun to NOT do. so, i did it:)

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~canceled today~

old friends

2008-03-26T22:37:00.003-04:00

i got back from seeing one of my best friends. i met her in kindergarten, and i can't believe that this year is our ten year reunion from graduating highschool. i think it's wonderful to have a friend who you have shared so much together.

sometimes i feel like we have grown apart with the distance and it does make me sad. but when i see her, it just feels like everything picks right back up where we left off. its so funny, her and i are so different on so many levels.. physically and even to the things that we just enjoy doing ... but something keeps us together. its odd. but i think its wonderful.

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yet another magical update.

2008-03-26T00:05:00.002-04:00

just kinda tired..

life gets in the way of my internet time.. with all this blogging, myspacing, youtubing and twittering.. i have no time to do anything else.. but i wouldn't have it any other way.. i heart my computer and this magical internet that it brings to me!!

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got it

2008-03-23T09:52:00.004-04:00

finally got my other piercing last night. although i personally think the two hoops in the lip is a bit much for my face.. its nec. to heal properly. i always tend to get infected way easy, so i'll just stick to the basic rules for this peircing.

once its all healed, i'll put my studs in - then i'll be happy!!

welp, off to the hospital to visit my step-dad!

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over due!

2008-03-18T22:20:00.005-04:00

its been a little too long since my last update. i've been pretty busy around these parts. my step-dad recently had an operation and has had complications sending him back to the hospital. he's expected to go back into surgery to hopefully get everything taken care of, tomorrow morning. i'm sure that he will be ok, its just a stressful situation because you hate to see someone you care for and love in pain.

i have made 3 trips to the dentist and have yet another one this week. omg.

hmm.. what else do i need to include to make this an offical and complete update? oh yeah.. a picture of me at this actual moment!!

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blah-zay, blah-zay

2008-03-09T23:05:00.003-04:00

omg i dont wanna go to work tomorrow!!!

thats all.

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update

2008-03-08T11:47:00.003-05:00

wow.. already a week flew by with out me posting. whoopsi!! i feel like i've been crazy busy recently. its funny. i realized that i DO have spare time to do things.. but my issue is when i want to do something (for fun) i want to do it all in one block of time.. not start and finish it another day or something. sooo.. its like i just sit around waiting for that large block of time to come around. and i wind up doing nothing.

i need to snap out of that. b/c i wind up accomplishing a whole lot of nothing.. and some cool things are passing me by.

this weekend is 9 years w/ my bf. we're going on a little get away. yay.

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i <3 the dentist!

2008-02-29T22:41:00.002-05:00

so, today i went to the dentist for a regular cleaning/check-up. i got there and was told i had two cavities (which didn't surprise me) and that i needed a crown. sooo.. i asked whenever i schedule the thing if i could get them all at once.. they said we could start today!! sooo YAY! they drilled my tooth and got out all the filling. but in mid drill.. i guess the dentist saw that it was hurting me.. so he had to put a couple more shots in my mouth.. i tell you i was numb until at least 930pm!! HOLY CRAP. (the numbness in my video was not an act, thats for sure!)

soooo... almost $600 later.. i still have two more appts to go.. and more money to spend (that i dont have) thank goodness for credit cards..

now i wish i still had the numbing back b/c this fake, plastic "temp" tooth is starting to hurt!!

*instant snapshot*

good morning!!

2008-02-28T08:14:00.003-05:00

welp, here i sit at 8:15 am just drinking coffee and checking up on anything i may have missed while sleeping, here on the internet.

man, that sounds a bit sad, doesn't it?

oh no! you know my truth!

the last couple of days have seemed to be kinda stressful. just stress i put on myself, i'm sure, from over thinking too much. i do that kinda crap a lot.

but i just wanted to check in to those apparent spam bots that stop by, to let them know that i'm still around here and haven't abbandoned this blog (yet).

*instant snapshop*

day recap

2008-02-23T20:12:00.005-05:00

nothing too special went on today.. hung with the man... did some grocery shopping .. laid around and refreshed webpages...

i feel like i want to create videos.. but my ideas are gone.. GRRRR.. i guess thats video/writers block.

i'm already tired.. and its not even 830 on a saturday.. well, i guess with my busy schedule today, i'm all worn out. (not!) wow.. not?? i'm completely from the 90's, can ya tell?

okie dokie.. i'm feel frisky tonight.. i think i might actually hit up stickam and let people stare at me sitting in my jammies while on the computer. YAY!!

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tired.

2008-02-21T21:32:00.006-05:00

yeah.. its 930 and i keep saying to myself its too early to go to bed.. but im tired GRRRRRR...

maybe i'll just make it an early night. heck my doggie is already sawing logs.

i'm so glad that its friday.. i'm really, really ready for the weekend. maybe i'll have time to do fun things, like make videos and stuff. who knows.

lalala

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goodness

2008-02-20T22:17:00.004-05:00

although i worked about 10 hours today... it was a good day.

i'm happy.

i love being able to say that.

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slacker stalker

2008-02-18T22:48:00.004-05:00

yeah.. i'm not that great of a stalker.. or a secret one at that. i can't even figure out how to subscribe to these people. so i emailed and asked instructions, lol.

yeah.. i know i said i had this for a while, but i've never actually interacted with people!? whats that.

oh yeah.. i joined a gym today. i wonder if i could ever get slender again? not as long as i have a computer.

*instant snapshot*

hi, i'm a stalker.

2008-02-17T09:34:00.003-05:00

so i've had this blog spot thing for a while.. i at one point attempted to post dreams in it. but, i failed to keep up with it. (can't get away from that myspace one!)

any whoooo.. as my little title bar states.. i stalked and followed speedyconkiwi and benrobot to here. i created a new 'blog' within the one i already had and wa-la! i'm here.. watching.. every.. move...

*instant snap shot*